"Hear my prayer, O Lord; let not my soul faint under thy discipline, nor let me faint in confessing unto thee thy mercies, whereby thou hast saved me from all my most wicked ways till thou shouldst become sweet to me beyond all the allurements that I used to follow. Let me come to love thee wholly, and grasp thy hand with my whole heart that thou mayest deliver me from every temptation, even unto the last. And thus, O Lord, my King and my God, may all things useful that I learned as a boy now be offered in thy service--let it be that for thy service I now speak and write and reckon. For when I was learning vain things, thou didst impose thy discipline upon me: and thou hast forgiven me my sin of delighting in those vanities. In those studies I learned many a useful word, but these might have been learned in matters not so vain; and surely that is the safe way for youths to walk in."~St. Augustine's Confessions

Time.....

Posted by Naomi / at 4:13 PM / /


Why does time seem to be slipping by so quickly and yet dragging so slowly? There is not enough time in the day, but events you look forward to seem so far away. The ones you dread loom in the distance with no escape, coming closer and closer, faster and faster.

My every thought is filled with daydreams, schedules, and lists all running together like a cacophonous tribe of demanding children. Choosing which to entertain for the moment is impossible as they intertwine and steal focus. Oh wouldn't it be nice to have nothing to think of! To be perfectly happy without a cloud in the sky! To lie on an exotic beach or ramble through the wooded mountains or explore a tucked away bookstore or admire ancient works in a museum.

And yet...I'm not even sure if that would make me happy.

I AM happy. There is nothing questionable about my happiness. There are even moments when one might declare me giddy! Yet, there seems to be so much I must do and have no idea of even how to start accomplishing it. And meanwhile....time ticks on.....and on...and on...

Time is cruel. And wonderful. And horrible. And kind. It's so complex and yet so simple.

There are some things I can't wait to finish. There are some things I am impatient to begin. And all rely on time.

We are so dependent on time! The horrid reality is that one day someone is going to say, "Time's up!" How many things will be left undone? What will not have been accomplished? Will it even matter? How will I feel when that happens? It could happen right now! Oddly, I wouldn't mind. I love my life, but eternity with Jesus? So much better.

Yet there are so many things I want to do on this earth still. Time is a friend.

I just have to keep reminding myself of that.

 

1 comments:

Kathy said... / April 23, 2010 at 12:25 AM  

I know the feeling and believe me, it doesn't change much, it's about the same when you get older....but the thought of eternity with Jesus is even sweeter and closer!

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